My Not-So-Secret Diary

No Amount of Coffee Can Fix This Mess

Today is one of those days where I am so tired and drowsy. I just took a two-hour nap in the morning because I couldn’t stay awake. This is what HNPP (Hereditary Neuropathy with Liability to Pressure Palsies) does to me. It is a neurological disease that can cause an array of symptoms of varying severity. Debilitating fatigue is one of those symptoms. I experience fatigue on a daily basis, but the severity level changes. Once in a while, I get so fatigued that I just can’t do anything. There are many things that I want to accomplish but my body will not let me. Coffee doesn’t help. I just have to rest and ride it out. Then, once it passes, I feel so unproductive and depressed because the day feels like it was wasted.

Morning

This morning, I took the kids to school and when I got home, I sat down on the couch. I was already feeling extra tired. I thought if I sat and drank a cup of coffee, maybe my energy level would increase. Well, it didn’t. My eyes started to droop and two hours later, I woke up. If I didn’t need to pee from the coffee I drank, I probably would have stayed asleep. So, I got up and made a second latte. Maybe that would do it. Nope. Nothing. Still extremely tired. I did some stretches and walked around the house to try and wake myself up.

Afternoon

Presently, I’m waiting in line to pick up my son from school. I’m slightly less tired but I just feel off. It’s hard to explain. I will take him home then I will pick up my two younger kids. After that, I might just have to take another nap!